Hmmm..my Momma..destination unknown..
Went out on her own, she was barely even grown and became
My Momma..I never knew my Dad
So even when the times was bad I was glad cuz I had my Momma
For so long she had to be strong
I know at certain times she was wrong but she STILL my Momma
She still amaze me
The Lord had to help her raise me judging from the way I used to be
My Momma..the biggest playa that I know
I love her so, hell everything I got I owe to my Momma
Thank you for caring, thank you for sharing your love
I guess that was your way of preparing your son
To be the one and not the two
To make you and my Daddy's dreams come true
But what a surprise, a car wreck left you paralyzed
The wool was pulled over ya eyes when the doctors advised
The family that you might not ever talk again..
But you talkin so I know that you gon' walk again
Just take ya time..guess who's the inspiration for the rhyme...
My Momma

Excerpt from the song "Guess Who" performed by Goodie Mob. This is Cee lo's verse. Although the events vary in detail
From my own in exactness, the sentiment is completely accurate. This song always reminds me of my Mother. Adding on to that, my Ol Earth and I have made an agreement to strengthen our relationship as of lately. It is with her and that in mind that I post this. Peace.

Azreal: A 5% Story

Peace family. I had the pleasure to watch the Khalik Allah produced short film "Azreal: A 5% Story", which is a interview/documentary-esque style take on a colored man that was taught by Allah The Father/Clarence 13x. First I would like to commend Khalik for having the supreme sight to bring such an obscure part of our national history into view. Thank you for that. Secondly, I'd like to suggest that those of you who are interested who haven't did the knowledge on the film, to do so. You can obtain the video via email request to "khalikone@yahoo". Khalik Allah also has a channel on Youtube displaying some of his other works. It definitely got some of my third eye gears churning. One of the things that stuck out to me is how come Gods receive Azreal. There is a segment where several different Gods expound on their view of Azreal as part of this nation or not. For example, one God's angle was “he looks like a devil if you ask me” and “what is he doing with this knowledge..living off scraps and people wanna to praise him for it.” He definitely has a point..You can cee that Azreal has gone through some hardships compounded by the fact that he's no spring chicken; With that in mind, there are plenty of Gods who appear to maintain a similar way of living( and we all know white folk don't age as gracefully as we do LOL!!).In addition, I know how the sickness of addiction had it's grip around many of the roots of our beloved nation. Let's not jump on our high horse just yet, shall we? This God's dissatisfaction made me look back to the Father, though. The Father is the only God I’ve known of ever having taught a colored man in this capacity before. That says something about the Father’s power, as well as Azreal’s receptiveness to civilization. The Father chose him, just as he chose the youth of Now Why. Why trust his discernment with one, yet not the other? Just a thought. Also, the colored man has six ounce of brain, is weak boned and weak blooded.Do people really expect him to operate on a level (seven) that he is NOT capable of reaching? That is a practice of insanity. By undertaking these studies I think it is demanding all that he has and all within his power to simply to maintain a level of living that is not completely destructive to himself and those around him. Keep in mind, the entire obligatory ritual system of Orthodox Islam was created with the sole purpose of reforming the devil, or at least giving them so much to do on a daily basis that it left no room or time for devilishment. I think this rule still applies today and should be considered in regard to teaching Colored people. They can't/don't get "it" as easily as we can. 120 shows us that not lying, not stealing, not causing confusion among the righteous and keeping themselves clean is TRIAL for them!!! After one has devoted themselves to this labor is anything else truly required of him? You be the judge.Sheeyiiit, His existence is a true and living testament of the mercy of God Allah, and in that video I can cee that he is more than grateful. I don’t cee him (Azreal) having to rise to the same standard as us (The Gods), because he is not the same as us. He should be qualified according to a standard of Equality, not God. What y'all think?

Conan The Barbarian...my synopsis

Peace y'all. As a young boah, I always LOVED Barbarians..be it Thundarr the Barbarian or the little blond haired kid from the Dungeons and Dragons cartoon. I f*cked with barbarian movies and cartoons HEAVY. I think it's because they were always depicted as having a raw strength that was pretty much limitless, plus they were usually ill with the sword(emblem of justice which was used by the Original man in Muhammad's time). Having knowledge of self now, I can see why these details appealed to me. With that said, today's blog is regarding probably the most famous of all barbarians, Conan The Barbarian (performed by Arnold Schwarzenegger).

Before we go in let's check out the word "barbarian". I've seen a couple of places say that the term comes from a Greek word "barbaros" that means "babbling" or "stammering" suggesting the term denotes someone speaking a foreign language or that it comes from the Latin word "barbarus" meaning "curly haired". However, I've learned that "barbarian" actually derived from Romans referring to Berber people.
Berber people are from North Africa, west of the Nile Valley, namely Morocco and Algeria. So, essentially barbarian means Original man. Agreed? Okay, now the negative connotation attached to barbarian is that they are of a savage, primitive culture, often likened to upper echelon cavemen so to speak. As usual, this is a "pin" added by destroy culture, because if barbarian comes from Berber, which are the Moors-that means they were highly civilized and actually responsible for the civilization of Europe itself. With that said, it is a historical fact that destroy culture steals credit for other's accomplishments, then attributing their own shortcomings upon those from which they have stolen from. This scenario is no different. it's like when Aristotle and Plato learned from Kemet, then when they returned to Greece with new information on philosophy they were persecuted as heretics. Yet, today they are heralded as the "fathers of philosophy". The oldest practices and information is the closest to the truth, for in the scope of recorded time, it was established at a point closer to the source from which all things came. Colored people are the newest people here, so they have NO clue as to what the truth is or isn't, for they are the furthest from the source. As it stands, what they usually deem pagan is most likely the correct way(or closest to it), while whatever ritual they actually adopt proves to be the most pagan, indeed (in deed).

Moving right along, thinking back to the movie Conan The Barbarian, Arnold was bronzed/tanned up something vicious while playing that role. Granted, he was used to tanning extra because of his body building competitions, yet, considering what barbarian means I see why he was made up to be darker. Now, Conan's story was he was a slave child that rose up to overthrow the tyrant who destroyed his tribe
(sound like anybody you know?). Conan was a Cimmerian. Now, some of y'all might have heard of Sumeria. Which is one of the original names for that region of the world that is now Iraq/Iran. This is also the place where some say the "Garden of Eden" would have been geographically located. Now, I could go to the Supreme Alphabet
to examine why the Savior U of Sumeria would be replaced with the Cee I in Cimmeria, yet I'll leave that alone. So, here we are with at three different points suggesting Conan's ethnicity.Off top, original people are gonna have an identification with Conan on a sub-psychic level(and I'm sure even deeper) because of these reasons.
The "pin" is cleverly placed as Arnold's role is the protagonist (white man) representing the right and just aspects of us/Berber/original people, while
doing battle against the tyrant played by James Earl Jones(an actual black man), who's into kidnapping, enslavement and sorcery (FYI-all ancient original sciences were considered black magic and sorcery)-he even transforms into a monster during their final battle. So, this "pin"- is that our actual physical image is associated with a bunch of things that are deemed "undesirable"-causing us to subconsciously despise certain aspects of your self(physical image, original science, etc), while seeking mental association with their physical image (replacing the hero of YOUR story, with them, instead of yourself), as well as vilifying self simultaneously. Internal conflict cubed. Of course, all of these dots connected due to a tangent regarding a completely different conversational topic. I'm making it a point to see the movie again , so that I can do the knowledge to what else is in there. Until the next one. Peace

Peace family. So, I'm officially a "member" of the Family Court Child Support System. Trust me, when I say Yacub's rules and regulations are in full effect in that place. His law on birth control extends far beyond the realm of conception and contraception, KNOW THAT! Dig it-so, as soon as I step into the place there's a vibe of degradation. I empty all of my belongings into the bucket on the conveyor belt, walk through the metal detector and the security guard directs me to the 3rd floor and gives me the "dead beat" stare. Upon entering the actual office even the woman behind the glass asking for my paperwork treats me with disdain. I couldn't care less though. I'm just soaking the entire experience in at this point. Fairly numb to the stimuli, I respond to the direct requests only while pondering "what the F*CK am I doing here in the first place?".The whole thing was like a crazy chess game Peep- the first page of the paperwork says "bring your most recent pay stub, w-2, tax return and a blank check because you WILL be required to make a payment". Crazy, right? Then on the next page it has a phone number for discounted legal representation that you could hire..yet, I can't help but think if I paid for a lawyer they would lay into me for even more dough under the logic of "he has money to pay for a lawyer, but not to take care of his kid??". I've realized that child support is makeshift alimony for the lower class. By taking me to family court, this chick has suggested that she has exhausted every possible option of communication in order to solicit assistance from me for our child..which is not true. As soon as she signed over her authority in this matter my position is presumed negligent REGARDLESS of what I have been doing for the 10-11 years that the child has been alive. That's disrespectful. Even worse, is the figure that their computer came up with as the required amount that I would have had to pay ($475 per month). Now, I'm living check to check just like alot of people, plus I'm married, with another child that depends on me as well. Paying $475 a month to this chick(because the money would NOT go to my sun) would cripple my livelihood-no bullsh*t. Fortunately, she was willing to agree on a significantly lower amount for me to pay. The mediator lady was taken aback by how easily the meeting had went, further detailing how unneccesary the court involvement was in the first place. I don't have a problem with taking care of my child..never did. But she obviously did. She successfully forced her way into having access to what her only son was due. Ezekiel says she'll die in her own iniquity. Here's the mindf*ck part of it..after we agreed on the said amount, I had to thank her, because she could have easily got me for half a stack a month and there would've been NOTHING I could do. hmpf..Family Court..Family is a serious thing..The foundational unit of structure for individuals..while court is usually a place where a game is played (tennis court, basketball court, etc) and I must say at 34 S. 11 street, Phila PA- one of the sickest games EVER is being played...on and with our families..Peace.

"sposed to be earth/ain't worth the pu**y that you sit on"

Peace y'all..Quick rant. So, yesterday I received child support papers from my oldest sun's mother. Upon receipt, I instantly felt offended. I thought child support was for people who didn't take care of their kids. My perception of the situation brought me to the conclusion that "this b*tch is tryna to convince people I don't take care of my kid". My Queen could sense my uneasiness and immediately advised that "This is not a punishment." After giving it a couple of moments to sink in, I would have to agree with the queen. It's not like I was trying not to support my son, and now my plan has been foiled. I guess it's more or less disappointment in that his mother couldn't find a more mature, adult (vocal) way of saying she needed more help with him. Mind you, she considers herself a writer and poet (funny, huh?). After even more thought, I think it might be even better to have the funds court appointed. This way there will be little to no grey areas. She wants the court involved, so let's have the court involved. She has expressed to me that he needed new things and I told her I would do everything that I could. I took a pay cut when starting my current job, and all of my funds are accounted for already. Even with that considered, we (me and the wife) would still manage to grab him some jeans, shirts, hoodies (for him to wear home and never be seen again). Did I keep the receipts? Of course not. Even if I knew she would file for child support in advance, i wouldn't keep the receipts. There's nothing that she can do that's gonna make me not take care of my sun, or to look at this responsibility as if it is some sort of tally sheet to prove my daddy-dom. I'm also afraid that she thinks I make more money than I actually do. Even with that said, I still managed to pay my allotted portion of aftercare, school tuition, uniform fees or whatever. Plus he's on my health/dental insurance(always has been).I've even offered to take full custody of him, if things were getting to hard on her. She agreed at one point..then that turned into staying most of the summer...then into putting a guilt trip on the young God. The wild part is after we split up, she's expressed how she wishes she never had him, how easier things would be. That remark doesn't surprise me though. For the first 4 -6 years of his life I primarily raised him while she ran the streets fleeting from the reality of being an actual adult/mother.I guess things I don't know if her being unemployed is causing her to go into panic mode, or maybe someone just told her the best thing to do was to get what she can from me. I was already planning on getting another job, but so this doesn't really cause too much of a hindrance per se. I just know there were a couple or more productive ways to go about it. In any event, come January we'll see what it's hittin for. I always prided myself on not being the average guy, although I cannot lie, this situation feels like she averag-ized the sh*t outta me. Aight y'all peace.

Peace Family. So, this past weekend I went down my old way(Germantown) to watch the travesty of "Super 6" Middleweight Boxing tournament. Before going to my man Samad's Grand Ol' Earth's to watch the fight-we all linked at my man L's rest. The major players in attendance were Me, L, L's son Jamir, and Samad. Samad was the last to arrive and prior to his entry I was building with Jamir about Supreme Mathematics (L had given Jamir math about a week prior). By the time Samad had showed up I had begun reading one of the passages in the Moorish Koran (the Circle 7 Koran)I had brought for L. The passage was dealing with "Man as the thought of Allah". I saw that relating directly to "Who is The Original Man?". After reading the paragraph, I explained how I saw the link to the degree, which spiralled into a host of other related topics revolving around knowledge of self. Samad was on the porchdoing the knowledge. He glanced over and said "Yo..You building real beautifully right now..I love you brother and that's real!!!" I could tell that he was really needing some positive energy-especially considering how he dealt with(or neglected to) Inf's return. So, us building was right on time. Shortly after Mad's moment of mushiness L says "Alot of brothers who knew degrees started acting like they were better than those that didn't have degrees." This was like striking pay dirt for me, because this sentiment was the sole basis behind the majority of L's approach to this knowledge and these degrees. I said "I see that. When a person learns something new and helpful they will become overbearing and sometimes even arrogant in their newfound esteem. I also see that the people who were not knowledging degrees projected their feeling of inequality in a negative fashion toward those who did know the lessons." He was immediately neutralized. I continued to build on helpful information and let him marinate on that in the meanwhile. This morning I was thinking about his statement. It made me realize how envious L essentially was. The problem is that he doesn't have any ambition. So his desire is never fed. His unfed desire becomes envy because he sees things that he wants , just doesn't activate the faculties in order to acquire it. Which all goes back to the wisdom build degree in the 1-40.."must qualify", and his own self does the qualifying-or in this case doesn't. he doesn't expect much from himself, so in turn he doesn't not provide much for himself. My plan is to circumvent this value system from crippling his next generation by teaching Jamir. While interacting with Jamir, willfully L will be receptive to the fundamental principles and modify his values some. Worst case scenario at least his son should have a fighting chance. Peace.

Disclaimer: My Ol Earth said "You are very judgemental." To which I paused..pondered then responded "YES!! I am!!" It is with this judgmental viewpoint that I type this.


Peace Family..Let me just rant real quick..When people get certain tattoos do they forget that they are permanent, or do they expect to die prematurely so the tat will remain cool forever OR do they simply not care?
I ask because this morning while on my way to work I saw a woman who had to be at least 45 years old with tattooed thorns across her cleavage/clavicle area. This perturbed me for two reasons 1) this type of tattoo has only recently
became popular among "us"-which means she got it within the past two -three years and 2) she wasn't the "look good for 45" woman. She was the right after work go to the tavern type, with the malt-liquor pot belly sticking out under her long-sleeved tiddies. What's worse is if she has the cleavage/clavicle tat, I'm quite certain she has the tramp-stamp (you know, the tattoo at the lower back right above the butt crack? yeah that one). With that said, I can't help but imagine she has a son/daughter my close to my age that could have a young child around the same age that mine are and that one day that grandchild is gonna ask "Mom-mom" for a snack,and Mom-mom's gonna take Lil Ra/Sa/Ta/Ja-mir/sir/fir/qir/dir/jir(Sorry, but EVERYBODY'S naming their kid something like this as of lately)to the kitchen. Then she's gonna open the fridge and bend down to where the juice boxes are and Lil "Ra/Sa/Ta/Ja-mir/sir/fir/qir/dir/jir" is gonna ask with impeccable timing and divine innocence... "Mom-mom, is you a smut?" And EVEN though Mom-mom probably never read this blog, she's probably gonna think about the question I posed after "rant real quick"..At least I hope she does..The lost-found was once mentally dead and many of them recovered from it...