"sposed to be earth/ain't worth the pu**y that you sit on"

Peace y'all..Quick rant. So, yesterday I received child support papers from my oldest sun's mother. Upon receipt, I instantly felt offended. I thought child support was for people who didn't take care of their kids. My perception of the situation brought me to the conclusion that "this b*tch is tryna to convince people I don't take care of my kid". My Queen could sense my uneasiness and immediately advised that "This is not a punishment." After giving it a couple of moments to sink in, I would have to agree with the queen. It's not like I was trying not to support my son, and now my plan has been foiled. I guess it's more or less disappointment in that his mother couldn't find a more mature, adult (vocal) way of saying she needed more help with him. Mind you, she considers herself a writer and poet (funny, huh?). After even more thought, I think it might be even better to have the funds court appointed. This way there will be little to no grey areas. She wants the court involved, so let's have the court involved. She has expressed to me that he needed new things and I told her I would do everything that I could. I took a pay cut when starting my current job, and all of my funds are accounted for already. Even with that considered, we (me and the wife) would still manage to grab him some jeans, shirts, hoodies (for him to wear home and never be seen again). Did I keep the receipts? Of course not. Even if I knew she would file for child support in advance, i wouldn't keep the receipts. There's nothing that she can do that's gonna make me not take care of my sun, or to look at this responsibility as if it is some sort of tally sheet to prove my daddy-dom. I'm also afraid that she thinks I make more money than I actually do. Even with that said, I still managed to pay my allotted portion of aftercare, school tuition, uniform fees or whatever. Plus he's on my health/dental insurance(always has been).I've even offered to take full custody of him, if things were getting to hard on her. She agreed at one point..then that turned into staying most of the summer...then into putting a guilt trip on the young God. The wild part is after we split up, she's expressed how she wishes she never had him, how easier things would be. That remark doesn't surprise me though. For the first 4 -6 years of his life I primarily raised him while she ran the streets fleeting from the reality of being an actual adult/mother.I guess things I don't know if her being unemployed is causing her to go into panic mode, or maybe someone just told her the best thing to do was to get what she can from me. I was already planning on getting another job, but so this doesn't really cause too much of a hindrance per se. I just know there were a couple or more productive ways to go about it. In any event, come January we'll see what it's hittin for. I always prided myself on not being the average guy, although I cannot lie, this situation feels like she averag-ized the sh*t outta me. Aight y'all peace.